我没有任何勇气再面对你或她。

我已经无法再忍受任何污辱或欺骗。

所以我选择放弃。

这对别人可能使我在逃避是事实。

但我没有。

and i really didn't..
just wanna give up on certain thing..
certain things are not meant to happen..
but yet it still..
i just wanna forget all that has happen..
leave this stupid place and continue on my life..


anyway..
physics paper suck!!

i was lost today..
at taka..
hehex..
my sister even went to e info counter to search for me..
nice right..
heehhe...
but funny enuff..
i dun at all feel a bit worry or anything else..
things have sure change over time..
hahas..
right now i just wanna concentrate on my God, studies and nothing else.
cos all hurts and suckz..
no matter wat people say..
it will never be true..
e only person one can trust is God and themselves..
believe me..
i noe wat i am sayin..
anyway..
some people ask me wat i mean e two previous sentence..
e first mean a guy treatin all his fren as if they ae his gold and silver..
but yet treatin his wife like wild grass..
e second meanin..
e first time certain thing happen is by chance..
e second time is a must to happen..
e third is fated to happen..

anyway..
just 2 sentence tat 1 i find it funny..
and e other one..
meaningful..

猪朋狗友当是宝，老婆是根草。

第一次是偶然，第二次是必然，第三次是命中注定。

after knowin certain things today..
i am more upset..
i thank jx for tellin me the truth..
i thank bitch jas for cheerin me up and comfortin me..
u have never fail to be there for me..
and u definitely noe how to..
but right now..
i am really very very sad..
but i thanks god..
hehe..
God never fails to surprise me..
i was doin my qt..
and e title was..
love your enemies..
so in another word..
i should forgive her..
thou i can't bear to..
but i have to learn to do so..
thanks God!

today was suppose to be a very very happy day..
becos i went to watch hsm3 with certain people..
but apparently it didn't seem so..
i am more sad den i ever was in my life..
i can only say there are certain things i have to do..
cos i noe i wun be myself soon..
i am gonna change..
maybe e new me will be more darin to say my piece..
i am still soft-hearted..
4 lines now..
anymore comin>>
i dunno..
maybe still have..
becos of.........................................................................

i dunno what i should do..
i noe it is all my fault..
blame it on me ok..
i dun wanna see u hurt anymore..
maybe e best is u shouldn't have noe me..

seriously i am confused...
i dare not take e step in front of me no matter wat..
sometime i am happy..
yet sometimes i shed a tears..
like today..
my tear shed down..
i noe i am forbid to do so..
but yea..
it was hard for me to stop..
well i did manage to when jx walk over..
pro right..
i miss him..
i can't wait till e day we meet again..
but yet sometime i dun wanna meet u..
for i have been hurt waiting so long..
it about to be one year??
jiayou!!