5th day goin pass le..
Wheee..
i manage to not look at wats goin on and face the fact!!
Brave right..
i noe..
hahhah..
but sometime i will still tink of it la..
AT least i make e first step!!
hahahas..
thanks for being so kind to me..
and yet so carin..
APPRECIATED!!
well i mean..
i am not gonna be silly again..
because i have already grown up..
as i am SIXTEEN!!
OLD sia!!!
haha
no offence to people older..
LOLS

haha..
anyway..
i got feedback from e last post..
from some..
askin me if i am ok..
i tink u are e one who ask me right??
mr A******
OLOLOLSS..
thx i am fine really..
being able to write all tat means i am leavin it as part of memories..
and i am not gonna look back..
cos it is painful!!
hahahs..
noe u counselor..
LELE,,
but i still dun care!!!
hahas..
jkjk..
no harm!!

today pe was well..
FUN..
we really had lots of fun when we are playin among our own class..
today we tried..
BOY Vs GIRL
fine..
e boys win..
but e girls scored too..
and alot of funny stupid lame ridiculous jokes took place..
hehes...
thanks alot my friend..
for lettin me to understand e real meanin of FUN@@
wat wat it means to be CLASSMATES!!
:)
cheers..

e second day without u in my life..
well..
am i glad tat i still get to see u.
but we wasn't even tokin..
we didn't even bother to look at each other..
fine..
i admit i did peek at u 1 or 2 times.
but tat it..
no more lerx..
i can't define e feelin in my heart.
cos it way too deep for me to understand wat is it..
do i still like u or do i actually hate u..
maybe i was jus angry with e way u treat me..
just like no one business like tat..
i noe u love her deeply..
but everytime i see tat..
it hurts..
it not just like oh ok..
nevermind tat things are over..
but it tat piercin pain tat painful..
it brongs tears around my eyes..
but i can't do anything..
but wish u happiness with her..

i was late for mmt today..
argh!!
i dare not walk over..
cos everyone has already started singin..
sp i sat there..
til everythin over den told alvin sorry..
he bad lolx..
this is wat he say..
alvin"u are here"
eve" hey alvin.. sorry lerx.. dun mean to be late one."
alvin"nvm.. i tot u had a accident den i worry"
evE"eh.. no la.. -.-""
dunno is it concern or sarcas..
haha..
no offence okay alvin..
but thanks for ur kind offerin of logengaz durin prac yesterday!!
APPRECIATED!!

anyway.
wun be lockin my blog..
but i hope ppl readin..
dun anyhow say things out..
i dun mind comment..
but keep it to urself..
as in dun spread to non-readers..

i dunno how many days have pass since u wasn't by my side..
but i not it definitely more den thousand days!
i have change.
tat for sure..
just that i am not sure is it for e better or not.
so i am gonna treat it as e first day.
many things have change..
includin e people around us..
e attitudes we use to have,,
have i become more lonely?
well..
tat for sure that i will..
for u are no longer with me already.
i have learn to see things in a diff way.
placing myself in their shoe..
and tinkin for them..
tryin to care for e less fortunate ppl around me..
this is what u have taught me..
and i will never forget..
sometimes i really wish u were there..
to be with me and tell me where i have gone wrong..
but i realise tat if u do this..
i will never ever grow..
so i am grateful for tat..

anyway,,
i might be startin to lock my blog,
to prevent some idiots from readin..
so if u are not a reader..
pls tell me and gimme ur email addy..
den i will allow..
but maybe..
i wun be lockin also..
:)
everything depend,,

i am very sick..
tink my class is full of virus now..
people who have been sick tat i noe..
jasmine
kingkong
pearlyn
terence
kengying
nairne

pls take care okau..
to all 4e1 people..
we have to work together to achieve this comin o level goal..

darling is so cute larx..
this mornin i heard some sound..
so i went over abd see..
den just gave him a gentle touch..
he turn and se bang bang,..
e funny part is not this..
but is he keep his eyes close and just go bangggg'
hahas..
post later!!

somethings that has been said.
has no point in taking back them..
it whether u learn from it or u keep away from it..
if u learn tat good..
cos u got another life skill..
but if u reject..
u will never learn..
i noe sometimes how much thing can get into ur ways..
and how hurt u feel..
how stress u are..
but they are facts..
u have to accept it..
face it..
there a limit in everyone..
yes i noe..
things happen so fast tat it go pass our limit..
we can't even see wat happenin..
but tat e way GOD has created e world..
i am not blaming..
because thru all this..
i have learn..
and still in e process of doin so..
somethime i too wish none of this we will have to face..
but it there..
u can avoid it now..
but not forever...
i sound harsh to u..
only wishin tat u will learn..
nothing else..
ok..


my ulcer still hurts alot..
and it reallly very painfull..
not lyin..
soon to be one week..
haiz..
it not like it will heal any sooner...


"If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way"


And I will always love you
I will always love you


You, my darling you, hmmmm...


Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So, goodbye... please, don't cry
We both know I'm not what you, you need


And I will always love you
I will always love you


I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish to you, joy and happiness
But above all this, I wish you love


And I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I, I will always love you


You, darling, I love you
Oooh, I'll always... I'll always love you

sorry peeps..
i noe nowadays my blog is dame dead..
such tat there is no upload of pics and videos..
promise it will be back soon..
till i am free??!!
LOLS..
anyway..
this few days.
till now..
still many unpleasant things are happenin..
i am sick and tired of it..
sorry to my friends whom i have been rude to..
it not e one month moody thing,,,
but it just i got a bad case of ulcer since sunday..
and till now..
it still here,,
it gettin painful..
also..
there are lots of test..
like today i just had my chem skill 3..
haiz..
anyway..
i dunno whether i had done e right thing..
in postin some stuff in my last post..
but i am not gonna delete..
haiz..
just to say that,,
feel so cold..
almost cried out when i was doin duty today..
my duty was at e bicycle ramp!!
spend my 35 mins there..
thinkin about my walk with God..
and many things..
friendship..
relationship..
family..
blablabla..
i can't deny e facts tat i hate my duty place..
but come on..
it only for 2 weeeks right..
somemore one week passin soon..
humph..
my ulcer is really hurtin me alot..

if u think by forcin u to say something is a torture to u..
den pls dun tell me anything bout u not happy next time..
i mean am i in e wrong to ask??
i tried ways to cheer u up despite my ulcer and illness..
but e moment u see him den u run..
like wat the??!!
den after tat ask u again..
u keep on say nothing..
and run away from me..
if i didnt bother to care about u.
i wun try to eat fast..
hurtin my ulcer...
i wun run back..
i wun bother chasin after u..
tryin to find out e truth.
i wun ask..
because i will find it pointless to do so..
but when i ask and u agreed to tell e day before..
this is wat u give me..
dun u tink this is really RUBBISH!!
i mean i am really pissed off by this..
tink of e attitude u show..
tink of e way u respone..
tink of e way u tries to ESCAPE from REALITY..
i am sorry to sound mean havin to use this word.
but this is really what u make me feel this few days..
this is e first time i have ever use such fierce word on u..
i also hope that this will be e last time..
i noe u will get angry about this part when u read..
u might even not wanna read on halfway..
u might not even be bother to care..
but tink..
how people will feel..
sad? angry..?
some will say it anger tat arise in me..
but i tell u no..
it is sadness..
havin to see u doing this kind of thing..
it hurts..

many things has happen this few days..
well..
after much thoughts..
i decided not to mention anything..
so as not to hurt any party..
i am not sure if i have done e right thing..
but i just dun wanna mention it anymore..
maybe it good tat we stay this way..
@ least or till both of us cooled down..
sometimes..
we can never see what have gone wrong..
and only see them when problem start to appear..
we decided not to take it seriously and this is wat ends up happen..
is it my fault??
i dunno...
but just dun mention it infront of me..
i dun wanna tok bout it anymore..

today gb day..
went school around 645..
yea i oversleep..
anyway..
today event was totally screwed!!//
well..
maybe it a goood thing..
so we learn from it..
tat no matter how prepare u are..
always be prepare tat that might be problemx!!
so yup..
officially this yr last time wearin full u..
gotta jia you for o level lerx..
i am really stress!!
and i am not jokin..

i was so happy today in class when my runny nose and flu was gone..
who noes..
it back..
and i tink e 2 culprits is kingkong and terence..
ARGH!H!!
so now my illness is back/...
*sniff**sniff*
and i also coughin..
stupid larx..
lucky no fever..


another thing ws tat i had e chance to speak to aaron..
well..
i dint really had much time..
only like 5 mins??
but i really enjoyed chattin with him..
well..
somehow he is one whom i entrust my secrets with till now..
thou not much but yet..
most of it..
maybe becos he is still younger and he a guy..
like wat people say..
once u told a guy a secret..
he will forget it by e next day//
hahas..
and they wun spread it..
hence..
aaron being younger..
annd my darling didizz...
(not tat kpo) like some in my class..
i told hi everythind..
thanks hor..
also for lettin me noe ur probz??
dunno if i am able to be much of help..
but i am glad tat @ least u share with someone and not keepin everything to urself..
well i mean u dun wan go to daddy and say..
i have something tat i am unable to solve..
as in not an insult..
but just a advise!!
oka??
smile hor..
u are cheerful remembe??@!!

today noon is listenin compre..
MT O LEVEL!!
am i worry??
yes i am seriously worry!!
never hae i scored well for listenin..

many things runnin thru my head now..
and i am feelin real sick..
a bit of headache now also..
sometimes i am thinkin if i really am enjoyin myself..
but i mean come to face it..
i am still e me..
just e uncheerful me..
as compared to e past..

MANY THINGS HAVE CHANGED!!

i have once again change my blog skin..
well..
and i realise that..
as time past..
people chage..
and hence..
my blogskin change too..

personally i like e design..
it very diary type which suit e purpose of a blog..
eccept it a pubic readin one..
so ya..
i mean i wun wanna close my blog just becos ppl are readin or not..
i mean since i wanna create a blog,,
i should be prepared tat people will find them..
understand??

anyway..
lets talk about today's stuff..
haha..
luckily my head didn't ganna concussion after bein hit twice..
haha..
one is by xianzu..
when we are both tryin to hit e ball away so tat another class wun score.
tat was a huge bang to me..
cos both of us jumpin..
and she just "PIAK"
and yea..
second time was when we just end our game with e3..
manage to score e goal despite e last mins..
den kaishi(captain) just throw down e ball..
and i was standin there..
and..
e next ting i noe is..
i was on e floor..
with my hand coverin my head..
(sound as if i am surrenderin)
LOLS!!
cos tat was really hard..
and we were usin basketball by e way..
hahas..
it was really pain ok.!!

lucky today no class test..
wasn't really prepare..
so i went to do 2006 paper 2..
guess wat..
tat what we are doin for act..
so i finish it faster den everyone since i have done it in e mornin..
and just recopy it to another piece of foolscap paper..

okok..
i better go finish up my homework and sleep lerx..
very tired already..
goodnight peeps!!

everytime we walk past..
we are just fakin a smile on our face..
maybe a small talk will end e whole thing..
or even just a geetin..
den we will go on our separate ways..
till e next time we meet again..
ever wonder why is it so.
but i noe there a reason..
everytime i tries not to tink bout it.
but it just flashes thru my mind..
maybe it my tots..
but i just feel u are somoewhere near..
and sometimes i am right..


dun get it?
well.
u dun have to..

well..
a short quiz tag by huixian..

List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:

1. new handphone
2. Nike/billabong bag
3. new wallet
4. bike
5. him

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who last tagged you is...
Hui Xian?

2. Your relationship with him/her is...
sister in CHRIST

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her.
- lame
- serious
- funny
- crappies
- person who u can talk to

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
bein there for me whenever i needa talk to someone

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you
Well.. there is alot??

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will..
well.. i never tot of bein a lesbian yet..

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she should improve on will
well.. her stuborness.. hahas

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
i hope there wun be such a day..

9. If he/she becomes you enemy, the reason will be...
different views which lead to quarrel..

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is...
OUTIN!!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is...
a bit lame!!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
i am crazy when i want to be..

13. The characteristics you love about yourself are.
being able to accept e fact for things around.. ( sometimes )

14. On the contrary, the characteristics you hate about yourself are..
i can be very emotional sometimes..

15. The most ideal person you want to be is...
NO one.. since God made me this way..

16. For people that care are like you, say something to them
thanks for being carin..

17. (pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
(random)
1. aaron han
2. kengying
3. nairne
4. pearlyn
5. doreen
6. adelyn
7. sandy
8. terence
9. eugene
10. tony

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
well.. i dunno.. for now i dun tink i did see anyone yet..

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
male

20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
haha.. nope.. one is my older cousin.. e other i my friend..

21. How about no.8 and 5?
well.. they are god sis and bro??

22. What is no.2 studying?
Fajar sec

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
well.. like on fri??

24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
frankly speakin.. i dunno..

25. Does no.1 has any siblings?
dun tink so?? maybe yes... me??

26. Will you woo no.3?
hahas.. i will never..

27. How about no.7?
hahas.. i wun date my cousin..

28. Is no.4 single?
nope she is not..

30. What is the hobby of no.4?
emoin

31. Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
they dunno each other lerx..

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
once again i say.. fajar sec..

33. Say something casually about no.1
darling didi..

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
lol.. u mean cousin love?? why not??

35. Where does no.9 live at?
well i dunno//

36. What colour does no.4 like?
u tink i really care??

37. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
they dunno each other..

38. Does no.7 likes no.2?
both are gerls lerx..

39. How do you get to know no.2?
same school?? same class?

40. Does no.1 have any pets?
never hear him say before..

41. Is no.7 the sexiest girl in the world?
YEA!!

42. Do you think its possible if no.4 and no.5 date each other?
both are gerls..

43. Say something more about no.6
my female cousin.. quite close..

44. what is your relationship with no.9
pri school frens..

45. List all the schools that no.1 to no.10 are in and originally from.
1. aaron han~ fajar sec
2. kengying~ fajar sec
3. nairne~ fajar sec
4. pearlyn~ fajar sec
5. doreen~ nie
6. adelyn~ workin
7. sandy~ workin
8. terence~ workin
9. eugene~ css
10. tony~ ite

46. What would you do if no.10 hates you?
God say love ur enemies..

47. Which of the following are in a relationship?
nairne? kengying? pearlyn!! doreen? sandy!! eugene?

48. How did you first met no.3?
sec one classmate

49. How would you react if no.3 and no.10 are together?
no reaction

50. Last question! What would you do if no.4 tells you she is pregnant.
woah pearlyn!! u and e guy so fast arx?? u still underage u noe.. CRAZY!!

WHEE!!!
i am so afresh..
i slept 12 hours straight..
hahahs//
yesterday mornin went study with huixian..
LOLS>>
den we forget some of the math formula so went to popular and look//
den went back and study//
hhahas..
lucky wasn't chased out by e popular staff..
anyway..
tink i will be acceptin e ranks..
after much consideration and lots of advise..
but i believe there are bound to be sweets and bitter in my choice..
hahas..
dun get it??
nvm//
anyway..
me ky nairne jasmine and pearlyn..
are ghost stories lover..
or should i say only e front 3 person name listed?
well..
maybe we are more of NEWS??
those who are always gettin to noe certain things in our class??
LOLS..
stupid larx..
just kiddin..
den went to kallang..
saw many buses..
and rmb tat it was ndp preview for pri school..
lols..
my daddy part of e driver..
proud to say..
so we went in..
shop around..
oh ya..
there was e tamiya 1/10 car racin..
hahas//
den went koufu and eat..
waited for daddy to come..
hehex..
den me and dodo actually wanted to go play pool..
but once we stand up..
dardar cried..
so we gotta seat down..
hahas..
den after they are all done eatin,,
we went to play.
but sad enuff to say..
there isn't any pool..
so we went virtual land to play..
LOLS..
me and dodod were playin drum..
den we went to play e 3 button game..
welll..
it e one with red blue and green button..
and u have to compete with ur players..
den we play basketball..
and go home..
hahas..
once we reached..
boom..
i feel asleep..
really tired okay.
den daddy went malaysia this mornin..
waitin for durian treats..
hahha..
i am greedy..
i noe..
but it nice..
BLEAHX..
but goin for some church event this evenin..
yea..
GREAT NEWS TO ANNOUNCE!!
tomoro is SCHOOL HOLIDAY..
since today is YOUTH DAY!!
muahahhahas..
better dun let any of my teacher see this..
if not i am in dead meat..
hahas..
cheers..
updatin soon..
stay tuned..
BLEAHX>>
annway.
just to memtion this once again.
i have got no boyfriend..
dunnno why people keep on think so..
be it my sitters or my friend..
hahas..
lastly..
i have been readin this book called second chance..
it a nice book..
do read it okay..
byebye!!

:)

sorry guys..
hasn't been updatin for a few days..
or almost 2 weeks..
hahas..
well...
i just receive great news today..
which is..
i am promoted to staff..
but e thing is friends pressure and lots more stuff u see..

well..

guess i need advise??
should i or not accept??
maybe to SOME people..
i dun seem to deserve this promotion..
but well..
that why i need advise..
cos i am in a difficult position also..

anyway..
just to say to ky..
i am really very sorry for droppin ur phone..
i mean if i mean it..
i could have drop it even harder..
ok..
not to be sarcastic..
but well..
just hope u noe what i mean larx...

den today inter-class competition..
well..
shall i say our team spirit was seriously demoralised??
we lost against e2 and e4..
just next week on e3..
hope by then it will be alot more better..
JIA YOUZ!!
4E1!!!..
be it e guys team or the girls team..
we can do it..
other team might be ~~~~..
dun get offended if u dun noe what i am sayin..
cos u might just tink tat i am sayin ur class when i dun have that fuckin intention at all..
but deep down..
we know we have to strive hard..

4E1 RAWKZZ my life..

although alot of unhappiness have occur before..
but..
we are still together..
aS A WHOLE CLASS.
striving e best for our O's..
:)