Time wouldn't rewind, sounds familiar? Many parents always without fail, said these and asked their children to always cherish whatever they have. It true you know, as in well, it didn't came as such an important aspect of my live till recently...
I wouldn't say I hate him but for the fact that he chose to hurt me so deeply once again, I cried, I harbor silly thoughts, I treated everyone like shit... I couldn't bring myself to say I don't hate him also despite the facts that I still keep those sweet memories deep down. A guy who can't give a sense of secure, a guy who keep secrets, and one that always act blur. However all these aren't as worse as the message I received on that day itself. In fact, I still do cry to myself thinking how can you be so cruel. I keep telling myself I've to be strong, trying to do so in front of people. But I can't lie to myself, i'm not a goodness, i'm not so forgiving. I'm not a stone, not one with no feelings.
There were happy moments that I've remember and will always do so, but I can't bring myself to forgive you for what you have done. Because those hurt you gave, you also brought back those in the past, and i'm not at all thankful for that. Those nightmares, the fear, the tears that you will never understand.
Back again, I have had the most wonderful birthday ever. One that was filled with so many laughter, fireworks and love! Kukup not only on Chinese New Year, but also on my birthday. FOOD YUMMY can't count how many plates did we actually ate. hehex. Wonderful isn't it? Bought some stuff and is really happy!!
ok, I'm tired now. Goodnight people!! :D
