today was E&D..
and so yes..
i promised to post so here i am..
:)
so ya..
let me start from e serious tone first..
this is to certain people..
well..
i guess e reason for me and h-a-h to be so close is becos we are jie and di..
what we do is only as close as tat and nothing else..
seatin together doesn't mean we are a couple..
we are able to do tat in public..
becos we have nothing to hide...
we are not a couple..
simple as tat..
:)

anyway..
ya..
today i meet ms kwek le den took a cab to school..
reach school den went down to gb room..
readjust my formal white..
and was sent out to talk to sir ty regardin e gloves matter..
dots..
den saw e girls do their trainin once thru..
and went up for my practise..
den ya.. at 9:30..
they had another dry run..
but we tot they started le..
(=.=)
den e actual parade started at 9:50...
but ya..
we watched e whole parade..
den we went back in abd prepare for them to start..
yes..
this is e first year tat i didn't really played any wrong key..
(*v*)
so yup..
overall was still quite good..
oh ya,,
anyway..
den we ended e song..
and when down..
it was like completely full la..
but we still manage to find some seat at e very last row..
den we decided to go down for a drink...
who noe,,
e others came down too,,
so we just took our time...
den someone came down and reprimanded us..
i mean come on la..
we drinkin bottle soft drink,,
how do u expect us to finish it so fast??!!
and pls lol..
only like e 5 of us who came down..
e rest is they come down themselves so why dun u scold them too??
becos they say rank as u??!!
so me and a decided to went up first..
as j they all just bought drinks only..
den yup..
halfway thru..
arnei ask up to take e best boy award up..
yes congratz to aaron worx!!
:)
den ya..
so waited for e msg to end..
KUDOS to cheng yi and jia le for sharin their testimonial..
den yup..
after prize presentation..
we went up and play our last song..
joyful joyful we adore thee..
YEP!!
den we waited after prayers b4 we went down..
and yes..
photo takin..
haha..
tat when i try takin e colours too.
since i will be doin tat for a&d next week..
(T.T)
needa train my arm muscle again..
no strength at all..
haiz,,
den 91st bb coy took first..
follow by us..
den 70th bb..
den everyone together..
hahas..
nice!!
den just as we were about to go down for lunch..
i decided not to eat..
LOLS..
not hungry.
actually yes..
but ya..
so prepared my fish market girls for their drill..
yes.
and off they start..
your did a very good job..
your impressed everyone..
:)
den bb had their drill down..
yes..
congratz to the guys..
ok fine..
i forget his name again..
but anyway..
yes..
i managed to catch up with many of e ymers,,
hahas..
yup fun,,,
den mdm joyce fetch me home..
haha,
COOL!..
lols..

anyway..
i dunno why..
but when i saw e drill squad girls today,,
i have e feelin of a proud mother watchin her children growin from a baby to a successful adult..
ok..
i noe it is very rubbish..
but i am really proud of them..
it like watching their drill standard improve over e times andhow much they have grown together as a squad..
and i really missed them..
from today..
after sera cried,,
i have a sudden sadness tat filled my heart..
it like ..
yes it gonna be gone...
forever..
will one day people still remember us??
e fish market squad??

finally..
my leg is gettin better..
reason being..
i also dunno why..
as long as i dun touch it..
i am ok with it..
can't stand for long too..
will feel a strain pain..
(T.T)
but ya..
overall is still ok..
at least i can walk like a normal person..

anyway..
i just finish watchin 2002...
and there is these few sentence..
*a humans tears represent stubborn, a ghosts tears represent reborn*
and ya..
*loving someone can really be silly.. becos u wil be so willingly to gib in or up everything to e other party..*

oh ya..
having gb tomor..
hahas..
or should i say later on in e mornin..
but yea..
i am still not tired.
and dunno why.
haha...

saw jy this afternoon when i return home from 163..
tink he is goin out..
didn't regconize him till he kinda call me..
haha..
LOLS..
he look different.??!!
nope..
i should say i was busy with my nephew..
with all e things he do..
hahas..
he is more important ma..
:)

oh ya..
if u dun wanna change..
no one can force u..
if u insists on goin e same old stupid way...
u are just diggin your own tomb..
simple as tat..

ok..
i gtg..
just wanna introduce a few more song..
without me by nicholas and let me die.
:)
*muack*

i dunno what to post anymore..
maybe i will post aain on sat or sun after E&D service,,,
cos i really duno what to post..
haha..
anyway..
i just realise there is so many people readin my blog..
LOLS,,
well..
but i am still gonna post what i tink..
yes i will do tat..
anyway.,,
pray for me..
See ya peeps..
*muack*

i had a accident today..
well,,
thou not really a major one..
but ya..
haha..
anyway..
we were at a cross junction..
and my sister waiting for e traffic light to turn right..
just as she do so when e light turn green..
another bike came..
and my sister panic....
not knowing what to do,..
e bike bang into us..
yes..
and guess wat..
he flew off his bike to just beside it..
den my sister car's brake spoilt and couldn't stop e car..
so she had no choice bunt to shift e gear to park..
den she couldn't open her door..
scared tat e car could exploit!!!
she told us to get off immediately..
yes..
my darling eyes got a cut..
and my leg??
bum into e deskbox??
and now it is swollen..
and it hurt like hell whe i bend or walk after a long time of seatin..
just hope i will recover fast..
i hate it..
well..
i can only say..
it not my sis fault..
not being biased..
but ya..

today i went to my aunt house..
tink it was her relatives death anniversaries?
hehex..
but i didn't really noe what was goin on.
so yup..
my main motive was to play with e little 2 darlings..
hahas..
and we did had alot of fun..
LOLS,,
i enjoyed!!
but e ting is i ate alot..
LOLS,,
i had rice, 2 bun, rock melon and grapes..
LOLs,,,
thou all at different timing..
but it is stil alot!!
OMG imagine e EXERCISE i have TO DO to BURN away the FATS!!
*faint*
den went pasar malam after sendin mum home..
:)
had fun there..
LOLs.
ok short post..

anyway..
i repeat..
i am not emo.
.thou i may in e past..
but am not now..
if u wanna insist i am..
den dun bother tokin to me..
cos only to u..
i will be emo.
and i am serious..
so better dun test my patience..
if not i make sure u regret it..
HEHEHE...
anyway.
e above if for mr LJX!!
BLEACH..

hahas..
jiaying decided to go back le..
LOLS..
apparently..
he still havent make e final decision..
HAHa
oh ya..
could u imagine it??
mr jy here actually play e **************..
(dun bother guessin i added more stars...)
(*v*)
and is in grade 5..
LOLS!!!
*faint*
not really surprise in a sense tat guy plays..
but i didn't hear him mention at all..
lols..
oh ya,,
class bbq once again??
perhaps in june??
LOLOS..
erm oh ya..
see
e song is nice right..
LKOLS..
ok people..
i am gonna promote it to all..
e song gei ai ren..
by xiao jing teng,..
i like e song and not e ya..
not really hate but he ois not in my prefer list..
go listen..
dame nice song.
:)
ok gtg..
dar is goin doc ang there tomoro at 9..
den havin E&D band prac tomoro at 7..
cya peeps..
*MUACK*

today was late when i meet sir,,
reason being..
i selpt at 6 plus this mornin..
haha
so yup..
den met him for a very long chat..
LOLS..
we chat till bout 1 plus..
there was a few question he ask and it really gimme a surprise..
such as..
do u currently have a bf..
and i just go *(o.0)*
and he say tat due to what i have been postin in my blog..
LOLS..
and i just go lolS!!
hahas..
i dunn have..
really..
i post is what tink..
and of course..
many a times when i wanted to start a relationship..
i hesitated..
reason being a tot came to mine mind..
as in like God is askin if he was really e one for me,,
yup.
so when tat happen..
i choose not to start it..
what for start already den regret..
:)
of course..
there were many other funny ones..
but i couldn't post them all up in one chunk..
so i will get this...
i really do enjoy chattin with sir kelvin..
reason being u can trust your secret with him..
and he just have many ways in using God's word to comfort u..
and i guess many could agree..
:)
i didn't praised him becos he was readin my blog..
instead it was how i feel...
when God send him to talk to me once and again regardin e obstacles i face in my life..
:)
hahahas,,,
i will try to adjust my lifestyle after this post..
LOLS!!
oh ya..
sir got a huge appetites..
ahahas.,
we ate at ten plus nearly eleven for bf..
and he is hungry buy 1 for lunch!!!
LOLS,,
i was shock..
cos i was still full at den..
LOLS..

continued on..
i went to meet rose..
yes AUNTY ROSE>.
she is back from Vietnam..
she called me and i got a o.0/..
once again..
LOLS..
cos i was payin money..
den my phoone rang..
when i pick up..
e person called me evee..
and i am like -.0???
den she say she aunty..
LOLS..
den i rmb..
hahas..
she den accompany me back to sis house b4 goin back school..
yea,,
and mrs lim was on ml..
how wonderful timing..
LOLS..
den met up with jas and chat with chers..
well..
i tink..
our relationship has some how drifted further..
i mean of course u are still my aunty fren..
but it just seems like we are not as familiar as we used to be.
agree??
maybe we have not been chatting..
so must chat more online ok..
:)
den as me and jas were on our wy back..
she just got crazy again..
reason being..
she ask me when am i goin to have a stead..
*(T.T)*
and she just go more and more hot into the topics,,
sayin stuff like i go your school for lunch den find bf for u..
and when i told her i met e cute guy during my lappy config..
she got even crazier..
LOLS..
but i did had a lot of fun just catchin up with her bout this kind of stuff..
i mean it is just so fun lol..
*(0.0)*
oh ya..
stop askin me to get a stead yea..
i noe u wan me right..
hahas,,
tat why must get me attach so u wun be distracted right..
LOLS..
ok anyway.
reach home and played with my 2 darlings..
i really enjoY!!
den bathe for them..
hahas..
so so so funny..
and when pasar malam with jiaxing.
LOLS,,,
u dumdum idiot..
i not slow poke ok..
i just travelled a very long distance b4 meetin u..
who ask u to be late..
:p
den bought stuff..
and went back sis house..
play again..
they just went crazy..
LOLS..
tomoro goin aunt house..
hahas..
hopefully it will be fun..
hehex..
gtg now peeps..
take care..




i still missed you..
i dun deny,,
but i dun love you anymore..
:)

oh ya..
just before i forgot..
sir tot my cousin was my bf..
LOLS>>
so funny..
we are closed reason being we grown up together..
*:)*
and he got a gf lerx..
who is a very easy bully target..
hahas..
right ms jia hui??
tink she gonna killed me..
LOLs..
ok i gtg lerx..
byebye..

have i been gettin emo again??
no..
i have just been tinkin too much la..
hahas..
but i'm fine..
yea..

thanks to aaron..
yea..
my darling didi..
he make me realise about love..well..
reason being..
he told me about other bgr..
den he say..
i am gonna have a gf,,,
and tat person is gonna be my wife..
isn't tat so sweet..
am imagine a guy who is faithful to you all e way..
LOLS..
sweet boy..
may u find you rightful girl,,

hahas,,
anyway..
to mr JY!!
yes i am so gonna pressure u to stay..
so u better stay..
if not u will go crazy..
hahas,,
no la..
but really consider it once more..
it good tat u stay ok..
loLS,,
i seldom praise u..
so ya..
haha..
u really did a good job in e admin stuff.
LOLS..
and u very bad lol..
chat half way den go sleep..
didnt even say..
*arbishx*
wat a 4 yr fren u are..
tsktsktsk..

ok..
gtg..
meeting sir later..
:)
will update soon..
night peeps..

finally back from gb..
basically other den helpin to lead devotion,,
i did nothing else..
hahahas..
now gotta prepare for e&d ceremony next week..
hahas..
playing keyboard..
3 years in a row..
hahhas..
hopefully i wun have to again next yr..
but if God plan for me is that..
den i will willingly accept it..

went to aunt house after that,,
love jayden dearly so much..
he is just gettin cuter and cuter each day,,
of course!!
not forgettin my darius dearly..
thou he have been very nasty to me..
LOLs..
but he is just so cute..
there was once when i was suppose to make him sleep..
so i got bored and started readin..
guess what..
he suddenly turned ard and told me tat..
*xiao yi dun wan dar dar*
and i was in extreme shock..
i ask him why..
and he told me cos i was readin.
LOLS!!
*muack*
weiwei love both of you..
:)

oh ya.
den wake up and rush back home..
due to certain reason..
it was tiring,,


anyway,,
i dun understand certain things...
pardon me but yea..
why have a relationship yet tried to hide it..
i mean unless your are very unsure of it or u dun dare to face others..
if not why hide?
afterall..
this is still my thinkin la..
so your,,
if u disagree..
so be it..
:)

i am really tired..
physically and mentally..
so many things again..
i needa take one step at a time..
which i noe i can do it..
:)
pray for me yea..
thanks peeps..

soon it will be enrolment and dedication service..
den follow by poly orientation..
and school starts..
in the meanwhile,,
currently decidin if i should sign bond with navy..
any suggestion people??
and i am serious about the suggestion..
as it could affect my life forever..
i noe..

so many things has been flashin through my mind,,
e past..
e present..
and even how the future will be like..
what bout u??
has it ever come to u in a point of your life??
how does it feel like??

now den i realise how stupid i were,,
becos i used to like 2 guy so much..
and i really mean it..
but i choose to let them go...
both cases were different in a sense tat 1 guy were just a likin i had..
so basically it was a one sided love..
e other was there..
but i didn't choose to accept it..
and i seriously regret..
becos i didn't realise how much hurt it would be when i saw u with them..
:)
but i am fine..
really..
just writing out so that i may feel better..
in a sense.
not guilty bout it..

when your make a comment sayin i have change..
think about how much your have influence me..
i dun deny i did change for the worse..
and i dun deny tat i have no fault..
but a person usually change due to e surroundin factors too..
dun u agree.

gtg go..
hav to wake up by 630..
seeya peeps..
take care!!
:)

It is finally over..
yes!!
Good jobs to all my fish market girls..
your realy did surprise me..
no matter what,,
ur have done your very best le..
and no matter what..
to me..
your are always my champion squad..
it just a different and b*** competition..
but i did have fun spending all these while with you girls..
especially during e last night before our competition..
it was really e best..
and that whe i finally know each and every of your girls..
how your are like and what types of girls your actually are..
well of course..
i mean in a good way...
and all these girls are...
Seraphina
Yasmin
Wan Yi
Joanna
Bee Kun
Noelle
Regina
Cheng Yi
Shi Ting
Li Ying
Jocelyn
Wan Ling
Xue Qi
Jace
Deborah
Connie
Clara
Qi Ying
Hui Ling
Cher Lynn
Qiu Xuan
Grace
thanks you girls so much for e hard work..
your make me realise my mistake..
and how to be a better person..
thanks..
i love each and everyone of you..
your jokes your craziness..
and of course...
how much faith your have given me..
of course not forgetting e bb officers and guys who have trained us..
like..
Sir Kelvin
Sir Tian Yang
Dickson
Wen Luo
Park Yong
Schubert
Jia Le
sorry that your have to see my attitude during e early days of trainin..
also..
e gb mdms..
and ourside Jos..
like
shuna..
joyce..
jessie..
ailena..
tingting..
for our boots..
uniforms..
and every supports and encouragement that comes from your..
Thanks..
thanks you.
we get bronze but we noe our standadr is more than a gold yea??
smile and take care..
LOve and kisses..
*muack*

i am beat from e drill camp..
i didn't stay with e gerls..
due to my skin..
stupid sensitive prob...
but i guess partially was due to e hot weather and e surrounding environment..
it has been gettin worse..
but yea..
e gerls were great..
frankly speakin..
well..
i am sorry for what i have say and your really prove me wrong..
we are already at e last lap of this race so dun give up yea??
lets just work hard together for this last week..
for those who re sick and injured or even if u are not..
take good care of yourselves..
dun fall sick again..
we really need all of u in e squad..do not fel outcasted even if u are just a reserved...
work hard on it..
all of us are in this together yea!!
we work hard as a team..
and we score our goal as a team..!!
:)

i thank God for the amount of kindness he has shown me..
which is something that i am not able to give to others..
no matter how hard i tries..
becos he has change my point of view towards certain things..
and most of all..
he is who i am..

anyway,,
thanks for so many people support during e past few days..
i guess i have found my way and is willing to accept what God gives me..
yea..
so i wanna share with all of u bout these 2 wonderful video that someone introduce me to..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY
it was really very touching and to speak frankly from the bottom of my heart..
a father who does not abandon his son due to physical abilities..
but yet supported his choice and accept e challenge with him..
it wasn't easy for the father but yet he did it..
and it just simply reminded me of God..
who gave us his son to died for our sins..
it was tough for both of them to make this decision but they still does it..
so why should i argue bout my life..
http://www.rightfooted.com/see/
this bout a lady who have no arm and yet manage to fly a plane using her 2 legs..
wonderful and yet amazing isn't it??
i urged all my frens who are facing difficulties like me to think bout how much God has work in these 2 person life..
if they can do it..
we can do better..
for God has granted us with what we have...
:)

i cried today just before parade ends..
have been thinkin this question the whole day..
did i make a wrong choice in goin back gb?
i dunno..
and i dun wanna think bout it now..
just today itself as in sat..
evrything was screwed..
first e powerpoint thing..
den singspiration..
den drill..
den commandin..
WHAT ELSE..
i totally give in to everything..
becos i noe i couldn't handle it..

to certain people in e drill squad..
your say mdm has been very fierce..
den this is what i tell ur to do..
put yourselve in her shoe..
your have only start on your silent drill..
creative drill is haalf way..
and e fact that we are only 2 WEEKS AWAY from drill comp..
and if your think that we are not as kind as e bb officers..
den ask them to be your commander on e day itself..
your dun need me at all..
since my impact for your is not there..
i am tired of the attitude your give me..
especially one or two of u are in sec 4..
and to the lower sec people..
since your volunteer to join in this drill comp..
den your shouldn't have complain bout it,,
becos your make the choice yoursleve,,
NO ONE FORCE YOUR AT ALL!!