November, a months full of ups and downs..
Many a times, I'm thankful that I did not break down despite of what happen..
Thanks God..


It started with this bad cough that I've had which started since late October? Yes..
It was a persistence cough, to be more exact. A stubborn one.
Despite being to the Dr. thrice, taking two different antibiotics and also cough syrup..
I did not get any better.. Not at all..
What worse, I was breaking out in rashes.. All over my body..
At first, I thought it was a common hives attack since I had it before..
But no, things got worse..
Red spots started to appear all over the rashes..
I had definitely no ideas what the hell was going on with my bodies at that time..
It was definitely not just hives attack cos it have lasted for days..
I swear, at that point of times, I really wanted to break down and just cry out..
Why me AGAIN? Of all people, why me?!
Not that I had anything against anyone, but hasn't my health been bad enough compared to everyone else around me?
Thanks God, because when such thoughts appear in my brain..
HE sent my clinic Dr. told assure me..
To which, after going through my medicine(antibiotics) and rashes, she told me I had Mycoplasma Infection...
and that, the rashes might just be a aftermath of it..
I felt a sense of relieve at that instance..
She then told me to have chloramine which would help with the itch relieve and to make me sleep..
But, it didn't work..
So I was told to take 2 tablets, which would definitely knocked me out..
and, nope. It didn't work as well..
I can still be wide awake around 4 plus 5 scratching..
Giving up, I took a bath each time to calm the itching..
It kinda work, so it goes on for a few days, and each night, around 4 to 5 times..
Finally, she gave me a private prescription to purchase this hydroxyzine 25 mg, a pretty strong medicine..
Which would hopefully knock me out..
It's really a bad thing when your body doesn't work with pills that makes one sleepy..
Well, it really wasn't good news when it didn't work.. Isn't it?
I was also given Xepasone to use with it.. together with calamine, AI cream and also steroid cream..
Just in case you were wondering, Xepasone is also a type of steroid medicine..
Things started getting better, but also not really..
So I did a blood test to be assure of whats going on with my body..
Thanks God, really. I'm assure God has been looking after me..
Because my result shows that it was an allergy reaction..
Which causes my eczema to flares up.. Might be due to the Mycoplasma infection that I had too..
The rest were all fine..



It is definitely much better now, though at times, it still get pretty itchy..
But I thank God for the cure, at least before my trip..
Those were the times when I was really down..
I was grateful for my family and friends..
For not avoiding me, or keeping a distance when the rashes was really at it worst..
They keep assuring me that they are not worry though I'm afraid that I might spread to them since I had no idea what it was previously..
Also, their words and actions of care, is what I really needed to get through..
KAM-SA-HA-MI-DA..


The up of the month, was on the 23 November 2012.

The day SMTOWN concert was held in Singapore for the first time..

Also the first to be held at a floating platform.. ^^
Not forgetting, it was my first time attending a concert too..
Having anticipated it for a long time, it was finally here..
The dream that I've been waiting for, finally come true^^..
Just a few moment before we left home, thunders, lightning, and the huge water droplets came splashing down..
Mum and sis keep telling and reminding us how and what we should do..
Luckily, the rain stops when were reach Esplanade..
Walk out to collect my SMTOWN passport..^^

The crowd was huge, and I meant it.. No word could actually be use for it..
The amount of enthusiastic fans that have been queuing outside, I admire them for that..
Walk all e way to the end of the platform and up to my seats..
Supposedly to be seated a rows and few seats away from elder sis and Darius boy, thankfully for the gentleman beside them who came alone and agreed to exchange seats with me..
MERCY!!! ^^

The start of the concert..
Didn't manage to snap any pics since it was allowed..
I'm being a good girl alright.~~ LOL!..
Artist by artist, group by group came out with spectacular performances..
Be it at the sub-stage, main or the walkway.. It was speechless!!
Though there were a few that fell or slipped, fans cheered them on..
Louder each time.. more spontaneously too!!
Interpreter/Translator would definitely have done a great job IF ONLY, she allowed them to finish their speech before translating or interpreting it.. Also, getting the date of SHINEE's upcoming concert right..
Was kinda restricting myself at first as I did not wanna scared Darius..
But how could I when SUPER JUNIOR DONGHAE & EUNHYUK came out for OPPA OPPA?
haha!! I started cheering and singing to their song like any fans would..
There was a few times when Darius just turned to look at me, I think he was really shocked to see me behaving in that manner!! haaha...
But he just got used to it as times passed by..
Well, definitely, I let the wild side of me out after that songs, dancing and shaking the light wristband that I was wearing to SUPER JUNIOR, TVXQ, BOA, SHINEE, F(X), GIRLS GENERATION & KANGTA songs.. Singing along with it too..
I'm glad I did not missed out this concert..
SM ENTERTAINMENT had definitely brought in the best of all~~
Songs, Dance, Performers!!
I just couldn't stop praising them!! HAHA~~
Sad to say, it started drizzle when F(X) sang ELECTRIC SHOCK..
Which then started to rain heavily..
But it didn't spoil our mood!! We continue being so hyper with Raincoat on!!
Darius then started having fun with the rain.. It was also his first times being able to do so...
Splashing water around and kinda moving to the beat..
Decided to leave once they sang finished HOPE by all, to avoid a bad jam down..

Definitely a splendid day spent!!
Thank you to all performers!!!!
Oh ya, just in case you still don't know..
I'm a hardcore fan of SUPER JUNIOR~ ^^

"Isn't She Lovely"

Isn't she lovely
Isn't she wonderful
Isn't she precious
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love we'd be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she pretty
Truly the angel's best
Boy, I'm so happy
We have been heaven blessed
I can't believe what God has done
Through us he's given life to one
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she lovely
Life and love are the same
Life is Aisha
The meaning of her name
Londie, it could have not been done
Without you who conceived the one
That's so very lovely made from love

안녕하세요, 난 아파 ( Annyeonghasaeyo, nan apa)

I'm sick, like always..
Yes, I know.. :(
I've always been very weak but I think things got worse after I started working too..
Nope, I don't wanna quit my work(though I know that the best option for me).
Maybe that just part of what I think as my responsibilities..
I couldn't agree to what others have told me,(call me stubborn)
but i don't think your will understand what I mean..
no offence though..

This time round have broken my past record of days it lasts.. LOL~~
2 weeks plus and this cough is still here, idiot right?
haha, I blame myself for not resting enough though..
plus people have been telling me I'm too heaty!!
reason being i had 3 or 4 ulcers since I was sick..
one after another, yet to recover..
:(:(:(:(


Sorry to people who have been whatapps-ing me, texting or call...
I really did not see any message or should I say I did not focus on my phone actually..
Hasn't been myself lately, kinda dazing throughout these few dayss...
Partially due to medicine effect and also, my brain is constantly worrying for people..
Sleeping has been a problem since I'm 24/7 coughing and block nose..
Waking up in the middle to cough is indeed tiring..
I really wanna recover soon..
Please pray for me to have a speedy recovery..




Lastly, just to say it once again..
I'm sorry to people who called my phone and I did not answer..
Ok, this topic is not just recently, but rather, since I've a phone..
I don't know why, I just have no habit of answering the calls..
people whom I'm close to, yes i might but not always..
But when i see a unknown no, I really can't find that courage inside to do so..
미안 해요