Time flew, it seems that another month is coming to an end.

How long have it been since I last blogged?

Perhaps I have the intention to shut down this blog, but I really needa vent.

There is no other way in which I can release my frustration, if I don't, I'm afraid I might just give up again.

So here goes..

The silly boy whom I've hurt deeply 2 years ago, came back into my life. 

For 2 years, I've tried to stop all sorts of contact I can have with him.

Which includes not replying. not meeting at all.

But somehow, this year, I've decided I wan to move on.

So, I met him up.

Ok, to keep the whole thing short and private, I've open thy heart and accepted him.

But, happiness didn't last really long for us.

Things always go in the wrong way.

The journey is really tough.

But I choose to hold on, even if I know I shouldn't.

To B,

I'm sorry,  figure out this is the only way I can speak freely without affecting both of us.

As much as I understand you are busy, (though my fren keep saying u shouldn't be, as a officer u should have more time, sound familiar like what you told me huh?) I keep telling myself you are busy due to your dad's company. But are you really so busy that you can't even keep a single promise? Not even a single sms that we have first agreed on? Or those promise are just empty language that you speak? I'm really tired of being the one who initiated the message and and to only get a good morning e next day and that's it. Nothing else if I don't bother to text again.

What happen to those sweet texts that I used to get? Those that always put a smile to my face, the someone who sang because I needa hear his voice. Even through busy hour, what happen to the guy that use to text me?

Perks of a officers, to be able to come out on Wednesday night just to fetch me home. Or even to put a smile on my face before I fly in the middle of the night. Now, it's just me and me. Many a times, I keep thinking should I pop by ur camp to surprise you, just to give you a hug and ask how your day, but I don't know if I should. What if when I'm there, u are not around or you are busy

I don't know what happen as to why we did not get ur parent approval to the extent that, they need to make u date another girl. You refuse to say, and I decided not to add on to ur troubles by asking you more since you told me you will fight for us. But what in exact is happening?

B, I'm really trying to be strong. But I really need you to be going through this with me, not ignoring me. You know how hurtful this is?

Finally, I got to speak my piece. It's time to be strong for us again. Though I don't know when will all this end, but I'm praying hard that it would turn out to be what we have come together for in the first place.

I really shouldn't be falling sick now, it's giving me more negative thoughts. 

It's all my fault.

I'm sorry. 

I'm really breaking down now mentally..
I mean, it's 2 at one go, and worse..
I'm sick.
Oh, God..
I just pray to be in good shape tomorrow, and be accepted by one.

Day 5 Of Seoul~

Alright, I know I've been dragging this post for the longest period of my life..
Hehex.. but the thoughts of uploading so much pictures, frightened me off..
>.<
that's not a excuse, I know..

So, the fifth day, was a trip to Everland!! :)
Well, it was really kinda disappointing as we have pre-book the tix which is inclusive of the bus ride to and fro but only to know that it was cancel when we arrive there that morning..
So well, please double confirm your booking!! IMPORTANT!!

Alright, at least we have a very nice tour guide, David oppa who was innocent;y being scolded by J and brought us there..
It's really nice of him as he could have just go off and have his free time, but instead he took the trouble to bring us to EVerland by public transport and of which, out tix were much cheaper and he brought us around the whole day!! So nice of him..

So upon stepping in, it's SPRING BABY!!

How can anyone resist taking a shot with all these background??

Spotted this lovely mascot and we just can't resist the kids in us to snap a shot~~ hehex..

Alright, so it's spring, and everywhere is filled with pretty flower~~

I really love this tree, it always give me a mushroom feels!! hahahah!!

 Alright, this is the famous cartoon show in korea..
PORORO~~~
and of course, Junior love to watch this show too!! :)
So i snapped it just for him!! hahah~~

Alright, more about the spring!~~

Oh year, so we walked passed this storyland..
There are plenty of "books" inside~~
It feels as though you are walking in real live with those story~~

alright, so since j had fear of motion and height, it's was really nice of david oppa to accompany me through most of the rides..
haha~~

Alright, i was really addicted to this bouncing and spinning chair~~
hmm, because of it's color!!
hahaha~~
but the sun is so super hot!! that i left my hoodies on~~

Of course, how can any theme park be without a parade show?
We settle down for a short break with hotdog bun and soda~~
hehehex..
and off we go to enjoy the show!!

 The very strong urge to dance with them~~
ahahha~~

Don't you just love the mascot character??
It's so sweet isn't it??
hahahha!!

Afterwhich, we took a train ride, that bring us in a circle which allow us to have a clear view of the park..
I'm too tired to walk through it~~~
needless to say, it was extremely big!!

Alright, so before we walk out,
let's do a jump shot out of nowhere!!
hahaha

Alright, this one look more like we are posing!!
hahah~~

After much tries!!
JUMP SHOT DONE!! >.<
hehehex..

Of course, we headed to the safari of everland too!!

The one and only LIGER!!
as the name suggest, it's a mixed breed of tiger and lion..
The only one though..
FIerce enough, hence, it explains the wiring surrounding her...

Hoot Hoot~~

Lazy to walk up the steep slope.
So we took the easy way out..
ride up!!

Pororo's best friend!!
Bobby!!!
Mine too!!
hehex..
we are equally pale~~

Rmb i say about David oppa taking the trouble bringing us around?
he didn't even charge us, so the basic we would do was to buy him dinner..
and since we have craving for bbq..
we headed down to Sinchon!!

And with the gents around,
we wouldn't have to cook~~
hahahah..

 so before leaving, a snap with david oppa for bringing us around!!
thanks you~~ :)