my baby pass away this morning at 00.38a.m when we were on e way to e hospital..
i just blame myself for neglectin her in e past..
she never fails to wait for me at e door after school or wheneva i go..
wheneva i am sad or being bullied...
i will go to her...
and see her sad sad face will just make me laugh...
whenever she see ppl eatin..
she will be e first to follow around..
she is reali a crazy dog..
she can play on her own after we are tired..
she is a toilet train.. (by mum)
she love to sleep in my room..
near my bed there..
i rmb..
when she had one op..
she slept in my mama room..(as my sis had to go skool)
on my bed...
she actualli walk through my head...
she jus love being pat...
she likes to chew on my stuff!!!
also my past hamster. (now i noe how my hamster dead {jkjk})
all my relative praise her for being so obedience..
she never anyhow scream or howl or wad so eva without reason..
ytd on e way to e hos..
i ve a feelin she is leavin us..
but i dun wan to make it a sad point...
so i didnt take it seriousli..
still tryin to joke ard with her..
u noe,,, tryin to make her normal...
but she wasnt...
@ 00.38.. she went stiff...
she was no longer there..
we reach e hos 1 mins later..
just tat 1 mins..
if i ve notice earlier,,
all these couldnt have happen...
once we reach there...
e doc told us she was dead...
not wantin to face e truth..
i went outside...
but e next time i went in..
she is still dead..
lyin at e operation table...
so stiff...
i couldnt help but to break down..
e other dogs there were howlin...
they could sense it..
at least my darlin baby didnt past away alone..
she had shoo mani company..
after which..
e doc give us a room to spent one last time with val..
typin till here realli..
i dun feel like typin on...
i noe she is still with me..
but where is she,,
i no longer had someone chasin me ard after school..
no one to complain when i am sad...
no one to wait for me after school...
no one for me to scold and to play...
she is no longer there..
but i just cant accept e fact...
i reali miss her...
i dun understand why...
i dun blame nic for e bone..
cos tat not her fault..
but i dun understand...
why didnt i notice her ytd afternoon..
noein she wasnt feelin well..
but i choose to use e com..
and oni got out when they say she was vomittin..
val lubb me so much and this is how i treated her..
i couldnt forget e way she look at me wheneva i complain to her,....
she will lick my face..
even if i got sensative skin..
even if she also ve..
i dun mind...
but who coculd give her back to me??
but i blame myself for neglectin her after darius was born..
i still plan to buy man tou for her...
i realli..
jus plaza tat shop dun ve..
i just wanna say these to her...
VAL...
i just wanna say i'm sorry...
no dogs can replace u in my heart...
i am gonna miss u foreva..
if u eva see this..
pls go to God there..
with tai ma..
and ah yi..
uncle ..
tai gong..
and hamster also..
I LOVE YOU, VAL!