i tink i really like this alot..

cos it is a very encouragin sentense for someone who is down..

like we tends to get into obstacles when doing something..

but why not listen to advise in e surrounding and den decided e route to go..

"if you see a dead end ahead, maybe, there is hope at the corner.."

wahahahaha..

i completed my 50m swim and 5km run today..

e 50m swim seems to be very normal..

but it from a 1.2m deep pool to e other side which is 4.0m deep.

lucky didnt bring my googles..

wahahaha...

den dun find it tat scary...

nazurah me dar and zhiwei swim first..

follow by darren..

e first to reach is nazurah me zhiwei den dar..

but tat not e main point..

e main point is we learn team spirit throughout.. :)

lol..

den went for e 5 km run...

which is about 12 rounds around e normal tracks...

startin run 6 round continuously without stopping with song..

den after tat leg really very pain..

so slow down..

den stop run stop run..

hahas...

pour water on myself to cool down...

den got lots of ppl run past me..

when mr maran told me last lap..

i wanted to run or rather sprint..

but my leg dun allow me to do so..

so walk again..

den when left bout 100 m??

dash all e way...

timing for 12 rounds or 5km is 35:45..

well it wasn't very good or wat..

but at least I COMPLETED IT!!! :p

den rest...

eat e breakfast provided...

hahas..

e curry puff is very YUMMY....

den went for my orienteering test...

dun tink i do quite well..

den went for campcraft test...

built flagpole...

hahas..

alot of knots is self-created one..

den first aid test...

mix and match...

wenlou say got lots of 0..

OMG!! =.=

den give e opponent test injuries..

hahas...

dame funny..

not gonna say more... :)

gonna post pictures!!

sunday!!!

today went to ah pek hse to celebrate perline bday..

hahas..

she has grown soo much..

love her..

muackes...

play with her den makan with minmin..

hahas..

actually ah pek waNNA play match-maker for min and his nephew i tink..

but in e end he say nevermind..

aiyah..

wasted so much..

lololol..

den cos gotta leave early for dinner den ah pek cut e bday cake without his brother..

feel so bad..

thanks alot ah pek..

and sorry for not helpin much,, :x

den went for dinner at jurong there..

where i always go for prawnin..

erm..

waited for like 1 hr++??

till 9++ den e food was served...

but still not bad..

didnt eat much cos already eaten at ah pek house..

den went to sis house..

play with baby..

den went home ard 2++a.m..

continue watchin tv till bout 5++am in e mornin..

den went to sleep..

mummy make me change her hp battery at about 6++..

lol..

i like blur blur one lol..

congratz to cousin sandy and family..

and welcome to our lively families..

baby jayden...

went to visit her den went to aunt house awhile..

went to mount faber safra..

actually wanna swim but it was rainin so went to e arcade...

played some games there like parapara and drum with sis...

den went to play bowlin with sis fren..

she dun wana play so i play only lol with e fren..

my fingernail broken lol..

gonna post e photo next time cos now at sis house..

hahas.. i sucks alot in bowlin..

but also got improved larx.. :)

den finally went to swim..

well e water wsn't cols..

but dunno why sis and fren keep on say it very cold..

hahas.. maybe they are cold-blooded while i am warm blooded??

swim and play till 9++..

from 5++ goin 6..

so it is about 3 hours??

den went to alexandra village for dinner..

den when wanna go home tat time rain lol..

so take cab home..

den use comp.. :)

when to watch movie..
yes,,,
legend of the sea..
how should i rate my comment??
well..
it not a bad movie afterall..
tat not the important points,,
my darling,,,
who is only 10 month went for his first movie..
well..
he didnt sleep at all throughout e movie..
neither did he make any noise..
hahas...
surprise??
that my darling..
tink he will be the first kid in e whole world who enjoy such privilledge,,
hahas..
anyway..
i really dunno how to tink anymore..
i hate myself..
how can i tink??
feel like slappin someone..
but i will never do tat without a reason..
so,.,,
get out of my life!!
idiots ass...

thanks mr a.han for helpin with e leaves today!! :)
ahas.. but keep on ganna u get scoldin..
sorry!! :'(
thanks again for all e help today..
really enjoy...
hahas..
my very good didi...
jiejie heart u..
today just went back church..
after a 3 month "break"..
most ppl like so surprize to see me like tat..
even double seven and leng..
hahas..
but fun la..
and my leader really look like a girl with his dye hair..
no offence here. :)
thanks di^2 for being my chu qi tong..
good usage..
ahas..
good night..

i'm so afraid
afraid tat ppl might see
who i really am
i try to hide it
outside i am cool calm collected
but inside i am crumbling
into a million pieces
i can't hide it foreva
sometime e mask slip off
and i am exposed and vulnerable
i feel so naked
and everyone is lookin at me
they can see right through me
but i put my mask back on
and i am safe behind it
nothing can happen to me there
SAFE
but the fear comes back again
just like it always does
then i am cryin out again
cryin for help inside
the mask come off again
that when i feel him
holdin my hand
the voice say
"do not fear, my child
for i love u excatly you are
and i will always be with you
suddenly a peace comes over me
and i am not afraid anymore
because i noe he loves me
just e way i am.."

it's hard to say that you're okay,
in the midst of hurt and strife.
you seek and find and presevere,
through every stage of life.

you wonder what the future holds,
how successful you will be.
but you often fail to tell yourself
"i believe in me"

you seek to find acceptance,
you conform to their new ways.
you lose hold of all your values.
and slowly drift astray.

your passion soon become,
something very hard to see.
again you fail to tell yourself,
"i believe in me"

you search for joy and happiness,
but somehow come out short.
you didn't seek GOD's will this time,
or wait for his report.

he wanted you to ask him,
"what is it that i need"
so simple was the answer,
"just believe in me".

should i be happy or not???

i get more time to spent with my family...

but i give up a one time life precious chance..

no other chance will be given i guess..

i hate myself..

i am not sure..

i tink i am stupid for all my decision...

tat it..

i am so sorry!!

back from china..

dame tired..

sick also..

just change my blog dressin..

miss him alot also..

love you...

update soon..