does it always hurt to know the truth??

i guess i was really hurt by him..
little did i thought that was what he think..
thou it happen so long ago...
but it hurts me more than anything else..
i can't concentrade on my studies..
i can't concentrade on anything,,
not being my truthful self again just lying all about..
afraid of letting anyone to know the truth..
i keep have this thinkin..
if one day i was to leave..
will you be there to send me off??
and tell me your real feelin personally and not just e stupid fake u??!!