sorry peeps..
i noe nowadays my blog is dame dead..
such tat there is no upload of pics and videos..
promise it will be back soon..
till i am free??!!
LOLS..
anyway..
this few days.
till now..
still many unpleasant things are happenin..
i am sick and tired of it..
sorry to my friends whom i have been rude to..
it not e one month moody thing,,,
but it just i got a bad case of ulcer since sunday..
and till now..
it still here,,
it gettin painful..
also..
there are lots of test..
like today i just had my chem skill 3..
haiz..
anyway..
i dunno whether i had done e right thing..
in postin some stuff in my last post..
but i am not gonna delete..
haiz..
just to say that,,
feel so cold..
almost cried out when i was doin duty today..
my duty was at e bicycle ramp!!
spend my 35 mins there..
thinkin about my walk with God..
and many things..
friendship..
relationship..
family..
blablabla..
i can't deny e facts tat i hate my duty place..
but come on..
it only for 2 weeeks right..
somemore one week passin soon..
humph..
my ulcer is really hurtin me alot..

if u think by forcin u to say something is a torture to u..
den pls dun tell me anything bout u not happy next time..
i mean am i in e wrong to ask??
i tried ways to cheer u up despite my ulcer and illness..
but e moment u see him den u run..
like wat the??!!
den after tat ask u again..
u keep on say nothing..
and run away from me..
if i didnt bother to care about u.
i wun try to eat fast..
hurtin my ulcer...
i wun run back..
i wun bother chasin after u..
tryin to find out e truth.
i wun ask..
because i will find it pointless to do so..
but when i ask and u agreed to tell e day before..
this is wat u give me..
dun u tink this is really RUBBISH!!
i mean i am really pissed off by this..
tink of e attitude u show..
tink of e way u respone..
tink of e way u tries to ESCAPE from REALITY..
i am sorry to sound mean havin to use this word.
but this is really what u make me feel this few days..
this is e first time i have ever use such fierce word on u..
i also hope that this will be e last time..
i noe u will get angry about this part when u read..
u might even not wanna read on halfway..
u might not even be bother to care..
but tink..
how people will feel..
sad? angry..?
some will say it anger tat arise in me..
but i tell u no..
it is sadness..
havin to see u doing this kind of thing..
it hurts..