decided to do a short post while waiting for my hair to dry.. i am tired.. both physically and mentally.. sometime i wish i could just not bother about anything and leave them behind.. it was my selfish thinking, yea, no worries, i won't do it... i will complete whatever is given to me...

anyway, on a second thought, with regard to what someone have ask me.. I hope u respect whatever decision i have made as to whether i will be going down to help or not... i hope you understand that i have my stuff.. it not that i don't think it is not important or whatsoever not.. but i am really tired..don't ask me to skip dance for that, cos i won't.. and don't ask me to compare which of it i think is more important.. Cause i believe you would not wan to know my real answer.. But still, i must emphasize, i respect you as my senior.. i always do, but i hope u understand my decision for that too.. :)

my basics not there at all.. SHUCKS!! I am just dragging the 2 of them down with me as a matter of fact.. I am so sorry, i have tried, really and i am still trying.. Gimme time, i will work even harder.. Cause i dun wanna pull u guys down.. Idk if i can ever make it, i hope i can.. I am so sorry.. Wo hui jia you de!!

seriously, my body not cooperating with me.. take today for example, my headache was so bad during dance, i could hardly concentrate.. :( More phlegm in my throat.. Whole body weak.. I can even get rice stuck in my windpipe twice..(the most i ganna was once, but today it twice) Wtf! I hate it, i hate it when i couldn't do what i wanna do just because of all this stupid problem.. But on a second thought, it just a sign that i am not getting enough rest..

ok, i am tired.. Night.