I'm really tired of crying over the same thing ever since the whole miscommunication started..

Things have changed ever since the moment I say certain things. I was just reading through the whole group conversation again, and well. I really can't believe the whole thing happening, not from you guys at least. Many a times I wish, what I've hear or seen was just a dream, but no. It happen, it there, everything real. Everything single thing coming from you people.

Tell me why, I kept asking myself this question. I wish I can just give up this whole thing as well, just give up the whole damn fuck and at least I won't have to bother about whatever gonna happen in the coming days, but I can't! Apparently, I no longer holds the decision as to go or stay now. I was thinking if I didn't join this school at all, and went to pursue my dreams at then, would all these had happen. Maybe my life would have been different, no it would definitely be. But then I would not have meet up with all those people whom I cherish. I wouldn't have know who are my true friends, whom I can really trust to have a word with.

Just slap me awake.

Ok, time for a proper post..

Work can be rather tiring at times especially with dealing with toddlers. The fact that they are not feeling well, already kinda upset me. How I wish I can go to work with no patient but I know that is never possible. Ok, secondly. The way some toddlers scream at the top of their lung, omg!! Piercing through my ear drum definitely!! No, I'm not angry with them because it is not their fault when they can't express themselves even when they are not feeling well. I'm just, well, my heart really ache when I see that.

Oh, I feel even more upset when children got sent to hospital! Seriously, I wish illness doesn't exist! hearing what happen to my colleague's daughter(but thankfully, she is recovering) and also seeing kids there, it really makes me feel so damn angry! Of course, definitely. Those little angels lit up my day before leaving by giving me a smile and waving bye bye!! ahahha!

Hmm, so that about it? lol!! It was so damn funny when another colleague of mine try to intro me her son!! ahahha! Omg, I was like damn freaking awkward and it feel so funny.. She keep insisting he is seriously good-looking and that she tinks I'm a good girl!! hahahhahah!! Omg, I was like laughing out loud inside, and when her son walk by, she gets my attention to see him, but too bad. I MISSED him!! hahahaahha!

The at times after work jokes with them haha! The occasion sleepy moment, well. Definitely I foresee I'll be getting sick more easily especially with school reopen, and also, more busy! But now, I just ask for everything to go smoothly! Cos I'm already very tired and is falling sick liao!!:(

At times, I really miss the old times. When chats can just go on and on like the whole day, but now? I don't know. Misses.

Ok. I pretty much have to agree I love hugs from the back. It like there is no distance in between, and also, both is facing the same direction, looking and enjoying at the same scene/scenery. hahah!!

Ok, this is another one.. I seldom like being the one hugging from the back, because it makes me feel so short that I can't see what's in front. hahah!! Personal issue! But well, if I do so, u must really be someone special~~

Ok, now this? pretty much fun huh? Dancing and playing in the rain.. It definitely cool and sweet, well, maybe not really. Not with the thunder and lightning!! Pretty scary actually.. haha!
This picture is definitely one of my fav for now!! haha, till I find something better!! LOL>.< Ok, I'm just trying to show everyone that I'm not lesbian, I love guys as always, hot hunks! Cute macho guys! haha, and this definitely remind me of something!! ♥ ♥ ♥
Ok, I've to end>.< working later and I've to wake up bright early in the morning!! *yawn*

Wonderful night once again! Thanks! ♥

This was probably the only pic capture during my last comp and I really like it. Ok, let see, I'm currently not in dance any more due to my previous back injury which is still aching on and off. Also, I'm currently without a partner, but, I definitely hope to find one soon. Maybe not sosoon barx.. Have been really busy with life and frankly speaking, my life is quite messy now. LOL.. Ok back to the pics.

I love this costume, it was one that was tailor-made by my mum's friend and the design was a outcome of our brains together. Also, it was edited a bit by another auntie who specialise in latin costume to adjust the bra strap etc. Ok, it was plain so my seniors helped me to decorate them. Really appreciate that, and if I'm not wrong, it was a pretty last minute job, like one to two day prior to comp before it was officially done and ready to be shown..

The effect of this costume is that, the bottom was made flair such that when I turn, it would kinda have the *fly* effect.. haha~ ok, but as seen from the picture, I wasn't even turning.. I was just plainly walking and it already have such nice ffect when capture. <3 Love it!

Once again, another month flew pass so quickly huh? Well, amazingly, I was surprised over this whole month itself. Once in a while something special well happen here and there, and I'm really touched. Little surprises from you, anything, simply just bring a smile to my face. Thank you.:)

Ok, I love to be cuddle.. That probably the only thing that will make me feels better when I'm upset or what. Well, let see, I believe everyone sure feel upset from time to time, it not the thing tat matter you know? But rather instead, it what that is able to make you feel better from being down. So for me, it cuddle. Cuddle is another form of hug actually, but it more of to hold in an affection manner, such as u hug tenderly. Try it i would advise everyone, it really a very comfortable feeling to be cuddle by someone.. The feeling of security, much more than a hug, e rate of per minute heartbeat, increases. The warmth of the hand suddenly became so cold because of how ur blood rushes to your body for the blood pump to your heart.

I'm looking for my happiness too. <3

Question 28: The month you were happiest this year and why?

Ans: There 2 actually, one is during May, when I went to Taiwan for my family trip. Well, yes.. It is not the first time or what, but I just love oversea trip with them,, Also, Taiwan is well known for shopping, fun and also their food.. Really miss Taiwan!! Wanna be back soon.. Second? That would be July, because he came into my life.

Question 29: A picture of myself.

Ans: Can I actually spam this part here? ehehhex..

Question 30: what changed this month and what you hope will happen next month?

Ans: I got a job? LOL.. What I hope to happen next month? just for everything to turn out well. Nothing else.

Question 26: your religious beliefs?

Ans: ok for this, it pretty straight forward.. I don't have a particular belief, but if I'm require to pray or whatsoever, I'm ok with it:) Neither am I against any religion.

Question 27: Talk about your siblings?

Ans: ok, I've 4 older sisters and I'm the youngest one, what do you wanna know?

*Diana~Oldest sis*

She is as good as my second mother, haha.. Reason for saying so? Since young, she have been the one who is in-charge of discipline me, my homework and at times, she like bringing me to see doc.. Reason being, my mum pretty busy.. Ok, she is super easy-going, and I believe anyone who know her and read this, will agree. :) She is very good in PR, or should I say social networking? haha.. She is very shy one actually, u know when it comes to shopping or any queries, she will normally ask people to ask for her one.. hahha.. Just to add on, she is also the mediator when quarrels broke up in the family.. See!! Da jie jiu shi da jie! ok, she have a lovely family now, Don, her husband and Darius, her son.. Her bad point? she loves to stay up late, and wake up equally late the next day.. But due to her son school timing, she have to wake up early in the morning, just to send Darius to GUG @ united square for his morning class at 9am..

*Klive~second sis*

She is someone whom I never really respect to speak the truth, not for any reason, but as guilty as I felt each time I'm being rude to her, I tink I owe her a apology.. I'm sorry, sis. Each time when I raised my voice at you, I turn back and ask myself, why, was it I haven't let go? But definitely, I'm really sorry for that. Ok, back to topic, she is the one in the family who value kinship more than anyone else, and yes, she is really sensitive when it comes to stuff like this. She might not show it, but you can actually see how hurt she is.. Every time someone is out late or whatsoever, she will be the one calling and checking ensuring you are safe, or even when we head out any time of the day. At times, she is rather crazy I would say, really, like she would do something you would never expect, hahaha, but funny.. She is also the best cook in the family, and she still owes me my spaghetti!! I love her butter spaghetti, the best actuallY! (Y)

*Nicole~third sis*

Ok, the most naggy person in the family, the 管家婆 everything she also know, everything also must go through her.. hahah!! She is the shortest among the 5 of us, also the pig of the family when it comes to sleeping.. I think if she say she is number 2, no one would say they are number 1. hahaha.. Ok, but she has the highest level of education among us, and taking a pretty good job currently.. She is a teacher, a chinese teacher to be exact, and she USED to be my tutor.. Of course, she had tutor others kids too, and not to forget, she is like the clean freak in the house!! Surprisingly right!! The most pig person, is actually a cleanaholic!! But well, any time when help is required, she will not reject if she is able to do so.. She is also happily married to Sherwin and their son, Sherwin Junior.

*Doreen~4th sis*

FInally last one!! hehehex.. The one and only musician in the family, a clarinettist. Some one who is never afraid to pursue her dreams and have never once gave up in doing so.. :) She is at where she wants now, NAFA, study music. Ok, that sweet, but at times she just get so irritating with all the off pitch noise that the clarinet makes. hahah!! She also someone who have very weird character, like people say, 孤pi(4) hahaha!! not really la, but at times, yes.. LOL!.. she is like the closest sis to me, one reason being we are the closest in age, and also, we have been sharing the same bed for years..!! haha.. At times, sleeping without her, feel weird.. Like no one to squeeze the bed with, no one to snatch the blanket from.. We are in another way, not that close actually, we always quarrel, due to the smallest thing, or even huge quarrel. But something I'll never forget, when I was in hospital, she stay by, getting stuff for me afraid that I would be bored, by spending her money when she was only like secondary 3 and her allowance wasn't that much. This is her, someone who loves her sister so much!! *awwwww* hahah!! but always drag me to exercise with her.. Like the most frequent one, I've only wanted to swim 8 laps, but she have her ways to get me into swimming 10 laps with her~~ that her, the skinny one, who will never grow fat!! UrgH~

Last but not least, the 5 of us!♥♥♥♥♥♥!

Ok la, I'm gonna stop at question 27, took nearly one whole hour just for that.. Continue tomorrow, early shift to go.. Goodnight readers. :)

♥♥ Our night of fun!! ♥♥

The Day I'm so nice, went to travel around!

Got bored of waiting for sis!

I pretty much love my new dress!

Mid autumn festival