The scars too deep.

I didn't expect the whole incident to be so bad,

at least, I didn't expect it to hurt me so much.

Till, yea, now.

When I was about to move on,

then I realized how Long have I been actually trapped.

How much I've decided not to trust anyone else.

in terms of a r/s or even him.

Back to the first part,

him choosing to let go, 

no,

should be get bored and move on,

I wasn't piss.

But what kills was he can pretending nothing happen at all,

and avoid the whole thing!

Fark it seriously~

The days, nights, eventually became weeks, then months.
I held on, but he wasn't.

I thought I'd moved on times and again but no.

Instead, I got Scarred.

So deep, and so secretly hiding deep in.

That I would never thought about.

So now, it became me being stubborn.

Or rather my heart.

It built up a wall so high,

blocking anyone else coming in.

I had to,

the basic needs for self protection.

So much so that,

I actually hurt him so much.

It was me being selfish all alone.

To prevent myself from getting hurt.

But I just don't understand,

how does 2 people from 2 different world can b tog?

maybe, probably, a short while.

Long time?

I've no idea.

I would hurt him deeper.

I can only try to say I won't hurt him.

As much as i know it,

my heart is still trying to stay away.

But my brain telling me to stay this time round.

What should I do?

Would he hurt me like how another him used to?

Would the ending be the same?

Fark it!

I needa be fair to myself,

to him

and to us.