Time pass, and I'm trying to keep my cool.

Trying to accept the fact that I would be stopping dance soon.

Nah, I won't opt to go for any more operation no matter what.

Maybe I've a phobia with it, and I do not wish to recall everything.

So just let me be alright?

Maybe, one day down the road I might regret my choice, but I do not want to again, go against my own wish. I hope your will understand. :)

Now, I'll go against the pain for as far as I can and try to dance again.

Taiwan Trip coming soon, in early MAY with family!!

To Taipei I think?

Well, I can hardly wait for it because it will be

MAI DONG XI CHI DONG CI, MAI DONG XI CHI DONG CI!! :D

Though it gonna be during school time, but I think it worth to spent this trip with family rather than staying home alone.

It might be a fresh start for me after all!!

I guess my body is really slowing down it's function.

Not as good as it used to be.

Maybe I'm old ler barx.

hitting the digit 2 soon anyway..

That what my friends have been telling me.

Let see, before I end this post.

I break down today.

At that point, it seems so unclear and blur.

Everyone fall one day don't they? No matter how strong they are.

And, it came to my mind all of a sudden during one of the church camp I've attended.

They were acting out a scene of how God sent his one and only son to save us, to be tortured, to be crucified on the cross and be resurrected on the third day.

Everything came so blur to my mind, how bad it was, the feeling, the mindset, the tears and everything.

And so is today, the hurt, the pain, those nightmares and the crush.

I really wish you were here with a hug and a pat.(even a bite)

True enough, I miss you when you are on the other side of the rainbow now.

Plus, it won't be so soon enough that you will be back.

But I'll always keep in mind what you've told me, till the day I meet you again. :)

Now I'll try to stand firm, tall.

Not to be push again.

SERIOUSLY FUCK YOU!

If you like to sound so gl in everything then jolly well DON'T expect me to reply you.

you are the one that say whatever, so don't go FB and say or make any comments...

I mean what for, act till so whatever on sms, den online act till so poor thing?

Shall I take a candy floss or pacifier to shut you up?

I don't wish I've to, but let me say this again.

If you don't understand the meaning of RESPECT, then jolly well F OFF!

Ok, I've finish what I've to say.

Back to the main topic.

Why of all must it be me?

First the incident, then the operation, the sensitive skin, and now to totally crush my dream.

Why can't it be someone else? Why can't.

Times and again, I told myself I've to stay strong..

But now I ask myself, how many times can I do so?

When will I literally fall and just break down.

How many times can I again to stand firm and tell myself that everything gonna be alright.

I'm not a sane, neither am I perfect.

All I ask for, is what every girl ask of, to be pretty, to be love and to be happy.

But each time it just seems so hard and impossible for me to grab.

I'll tell myself to stand firm now, but really, am i able to?

I don't know.

I hate that the fact I've to stop dancing soon, I hate the fact that I won't be able to dance in the future..

I hate the fact that of all, it me. :(

Signing off,

anonymous.

This is not gonna be a good post once again.

Well, reason being I would not be able to pursue my dream anymore.

Not that I don't want or what, but the facts that I'm not able to.

Just a recap, hmmm. I suffered a back muscle sprain weeks ago and the doctor say it would be permanent. well, just when I do not want to agree with it, I was forced to.

My back ache like hell!

Many thoughts have been running through my mind recently..

Be it I encounter them myself or by others and that I've heard of..

Just like the other day for example, I heard of this news from someone I knew about something that has happen recently in a group. When I was question about what I tink of that person, well I say what I know of him. Someone responsible, someone caring yes etc etc. He is this type of a person I knew since the first day I know him years ago, for who he is. :) But well, in return from that answer. My answer was question, like someone pointing a palm to you and say what do you see? Many would easily answer, it a hand of course. But this someone told me wrong, he say from his view, not only does he see a hand, but also the arm, the person behind this arm, the wall behind this person. I don't deny what he say was wrong, and I started asking myself if I really do know this person well, you might be surprise that I say no but I would vouch he is definitely those that I had say of him.

It so happens that both side got conflicts and which do you side, well, I used to take side personally. But now, I tink I won't. Because I realize that among many stories we would have heard of from that conflict, there are always questions at the end of each stories. It just like I'm telling you about the story of Cinderella that in the end they leave happily after. But you would just question me how do I know about it. Just because the books say so? Then you are what everyone else say, judging a book by it cover. Well, I would like to stay neutral. Because I believe that no matter what happens, no matter who right or who wrong, everything takes 2 hand to clap and not 1. If everything is 1, then there won't be such a thing call problem or conflict.

Next, it also link me to this question. Does it mean that you are older or more educated or whatever means you are better at something? Seen the social more clearly? Or even more qualified to judge what is wrong and what is right? No, it doesn't. It doesn't mean that way, neither does it say that because you have seen life for the way it is, and hence make a judgement. At times, many of us fail to do this, we fail to take a step back and see where the problem lies before making our comments. Normally, because we take sides, and this link to what I've been saying earlier. Maybe if we were to take a step back things would have been view differently then.

Today have definitely been the worst of my ITP life, the one that makes me regret everything I've been doing for the past six and a half months. This started question me, should I stayed for the next 2 weeks as I had promise? Or should I just leave and look for a better, more carefree part time job outside? I'm wondering.

LOL~~!

as the post title suggest..

It time to post bout meeting the *HIM*

ahahah..

I've yet to meet zhao XUN and Jiaxing too!! OMG miss them~~ *blush*

haha so here it goes..

The very ANCIENT outing with Jy!! hahah

We WERE supposed to head town, but well..

see la due to someone being lazy and not packing..

We headed somewhere near instead.. Jurong Point..

But prior to that, i met my love for lunch!! ehehhex..

We had MOS burger and we chat and chat and... chat!!!

OMG,, my freakles!!!

We are trying to imitate some "raw stranger"

So yes, as usual, we take tons of photos..

hehex..

and afterwhich, off i went to meet Mr JY..

LOL!!

Told him to meet me in front of CHOMEL and guess what..

he walk past it as though it wasn't there..

hahaha!! BLIND MAN..

so end up, i've to meet him at the main entrance..

SEE HE WIN LIAO..

make a injured woman walk like tons of steps..

so went with him to watch er, no string attached?

haha..

dame funny that when i finally get the jokes that jia xing has been telling me all the while!! LOLS..

anyway, it a nice movie..

so yea head home to rest after which..

and im super lazy to update..

all the best for ur china trip!! :D

Pig Head for sale anyone? haha!!

there a aftermath joke on this pics!! LOL!

I love this picture for some reasons.. though I look freaking Fugly in it..

haiz what to do i'm not pretty.. LOL..

I love the lighting..

It the third pics we took i tink, before getting it right!! LOL!

See this prove how much I hate HIM!!

OK!! I'm super lazy to post up anything for a update..

hehehx..

so what I did was to GRAB from my love!!!

Eh, she didn't put copyright lor~~ hehehx..

So here it goes~~~

EnJOY!!

And now time for some updates on the present haaaaaaa. :D

Met up with Eve on Monday to just have a chill-out session after work. It was good to not think abt work. :)
Headed to M.A.C while waiting for her and took a good look at the Wonder Woman series they launched.
Kinda love the lipstick, but hm, I'm still wondering. I love their blushers and concealer too....

The second thing I thought about when I got to Vivo was to have GONG CHA. :D
I still don't ever get sick of drinking their Milk Tea w Herbal Jelly. :) MAD LOVE.



Supposingly wanted to walk around and shop, but I just spotted the beautiful Boardwalk! :)
I haven't been there before, it's the one that' heading right to USS/Sentosa. Absolutely gorgeous! (Y)
I love that place so much. It overlooks the sea and also the high castles and rollercoasters at USS.

It's really a good place to just sit down and chat about stuff, and just enjoy the breeze and snap photos.



It was still bright when we sat down, but the night fills in slowly lol. Really fast I din really notice.
I don't know what else to write, cuz we're just doing what we do best. Talk, Chat, Gossip, PHOTOS.

I look like shit in a lot of photos so just keep quiet about it lol.
So enjoy what I'm showing and just scroll down!

Haaa, notice the sky is still really bright.

And it's becoming dim and dark.

Pretty soon we're also taking our own pictures lol. HAAA, rabbit teeth ...

Pretty soon it's time to get off the BoardWalk and head in for some walk.

Idiots. Directional signs also must take. LOL



There's loads more, just head to facebook and see okay.

There's ones in Toysaurus when we went in to have a lil fun. LOL 'nuff said, go see yourself.

I didn't thought Back sprain was so hurtful till i get the FEEL of it!! YES, the feel!!

That sent me to tears!! WhICH f***ing hurt so much!! it a muscle strain according to the doc, but someone tell me, how am i to live with this pain..?

I won't be dancing for 2 weeks, I won't be walking properly for days, and worse.. The injury will be permanent! which mean I'll get it as and when next time..

This pain it causes me not to seat properly, lie properly..

It worse than the previous 2 days, no after the doctor did all those test to me.. :(

I can't move much which is as good as one posture, straight!!

Kill me please!! like seriously!! it sending me tears.. :'(

Thanks for what you have done, APPRECIATED!! :D

SHIT MAN!! I SWEAR! and it's definitely sending me tears.

It get worse if i Sit long, or do certain bending.

I wanna recover and get back to dance..

I miss jumpin around..

most of all, i miss you.. :(

So as the picture suggest, I'm freaking suffering from a back sprain!! And it all due to a small sneeze that I've had earlier this morning!! :( I didn't thought it was so serious as it was fine all the way while travelling to work but it only started aching once I alighted the cab and since then. Standing up and seating down, omg even shitting became my worse fear. Walking for a extended long period of times put me down to frown face.

Shouldn't I be resting instead you would be asking? haha, that a good note. but that ache stops me from having the rest plus I am the clumsy type whereby I wake up and will just get up of bed. As good as getting myself more discomfort. DUmB right? LOL i noe but you don't have to admit it!!

hmm!! YES YES!!!

attachment ending in 2 weeks time.. that has beeen what everyone has been waiting for..

to get a good rest before the new school term starts again..

now should i work till end of march? or just 1 week for the new intern?

the pay is definitely good($8.5 per hour)but what I'm more worry is the commitment..

and I'll be freaking tired, neither do I want to break the promises with Nic sis of helping her to babysit, which allows me to spend more time with Junior alone..

what should I do?